I read someone’s blog post entitled “feeling Nostalgic”. They spoke of missing their grandparents. I thought about my grandparents. I didn’t have any fond memories of them to miss. They either passed when I was young or lived too far away to know that well. I don’t seem to have any memories worth missing. So I have nothing to feel nostalgic about. I guess that can be a good thing or bad. No one can say I live in the past, but I don’t live in the present either. I have hope for the future, but don’t contemplate it often. So where do I live? In another realm, or maybe a different dimension. At least part of my mind does. While my body goes through the motions of life. Like living in a black and white movie, void of life. I long for that feeling of living in the moment, the now. Experiencing every moment to the fullest. But I don’t know how to do that.
Prof. Somer described different pathways to Maladaptive Daydreaming (MD) and corresponding treatment approaches.
My latest attempt at a cure or treatment is mind control. Heard a man talking about it on the radio show Coast to Coast AM. I ordered one called Serenity. It has shadowed subliminal messages or affirmations in with oceans sounds. You can choose nature sounds or music. The sound of waves is soothing to me anyway. The company is called InnerTalk, I liked them because they provide a list of all the messages in the recording, so you don’t wonder what they are really telling you to do. I had one company refuse to tell what the messages were, like it was a big secret. What if they were saying send me money or something. I also liked that you could be doing other things while listening, like working on the computer. Unlike the self hypnosis ones I tried that always wanted you to relax and close your eyes. I always fell asleep.
Well, I started over the weekend and have had the greatest amount of success out of all the treatments I’ve tried. It seems to have blocked the involuntary part and I am just left with the habit part. Which isn’t all that easy to break but it is doable. I have noticed what could be withdrawal symptoms. Kind of feeling lost, not knowing what to think about. Trying to find real things to fill the time and thoughts. But this is a good problem to have right? Anyway it seems like a good therapy that is helping me over come this MDD. One day at a time.
I was listening to a radio show and the guy was talking about what we visualize or daydream becomes our future. I have always heard what you think or ponder the most will come to pass. Your subconscious will work to make it a reality. That is why it is not good to think on negative things, like if someone imagines themselves doing a crime sooner or later they will find opportunity to do the crime for real. Well this got me thinking about how MDD would play into this. If you daydream about things that are not possible to become reality what does your subconscious do with these cues? Not like normal daydreams where a person gets a better job or is more healty etc, but the type including impossibilities like time travel, super human abilities etc. Does this get our minds stuck, in a loop? Like feeding bad data into a computer program, it will not be able to complete the calculations. So it may get stuck (my internet browser does that all the time) not able to move on to other things. This may keep us from having the motivation to go on the better things and may stop the “projection” of synchronicity. Some believe your subconscious will send out “requests” for the “universe” to bring to reality through chance encounters. Not saying I believe that but it does make sense that MDD could be limiting us from reaching our potential. What do you think?
Dr Eli Somer talking about his research into maladaptive daydreaming.